I think that this is a question that noone can answer.
I've been raised a Christian, and yet I still ponder how to answer this question. I guess the Christian answer would be to say that it is a gift from God. Yet, it's hard for me to see it as a gift when we have been created in a fallen state, in a fallen world, and then suppose to do good! I know that God knows that it is impossible to do, and that he died so that we don't have to fufill the law, but it makes it so difficult.
As a teenager growing up, I have always felt like the freak. Everyone could go around drinking, smoking, having sex...and consider it a great time. I was never one for the party scene, but I still longed for connection with my peers and their opinion of me weighed heavy in my heart. All of a sudden, I wasn't invited to anything and I began getting the cold shoulder. I was a "prude" and I was boring because I didn't participate in their outings. So what have I done? I've fallen for it all. The drinking, the sex, but not drugs. And where has it got me...back to the beginning again. Just cause you join in all the events doesn't guarentee a friendship with anyone. Infact, the only thing I gained was disrespect and mistreatment.
I apologize for that tangent...so what is life? Seems like its a series of relationships. Personal relationships, friendships, familial relationships, romantic relationships, work relationships, and resistance to relationship. I mean, if you think about it...you're even tied to your enemies. When I've asked other people this question, they laugh and talk about Sims. I think to movies like Gamer. And when I see these representations of life and what it means, I fell discouraged and overall, downhearted. I mean, I'm in my 20s and I feel that my life is already over. What's the point of trying to have a romantic relationship over and over again? How many more friends are gonna walk away when times get rough, how many irreplaceable family member and friends will be taken away from us? After awhile, I look at my life...and I do see Sims, I see Gamer, and it really brings down the feeling that life is something special and unique. It's all been done before...
If life = Relationships...then I have failed.
I know that eternal life = God and a perfect relationship with Him. I guess I have that to look forward to.
